What are you reading that form your thoughts on real Judaism ? Your writting skills suggest to me that you are not a hermit living in a cave. Moses, Yahshua, the Elders, Yes, we make interpretations and for that we will be judged. To say I make decisions of worship bases on my own thoughts, suggest that one is still discovering his own limitations. Not to listen to your Rabbi, leads me to ask are you a practising Jew ?
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from the article: What’s the point of observing Judaism?